Just had my marketing exam today. seriously, FML.

the paper is 50 marks, i left 10 marks blank. well, i did scribble something but it's so irrelevant it's as good as blank. i didn't even want to ask the others to check about the answers. whatever they were discussing after exam was like alien to me. it probaby hadn't sunk in that i'm screwed but now it has. even for questions i was rather confident of, it turns out i mixed up "personal" from "psychological", which my explanation wasn't sufficient at all anyway. so it's another 5 marks gone. 20 marks belonged to MCQ, and from past experience, you can only get about half as much correct even if you felt that you should have gotten like what, 18?? such a goner.

i went to bed last night at 5am, couldn't sleep till 6am. wtf. seriously, wtf. wasted my lack of sleep. came home and KO-ed straight till just and had my dinner. was putting aside all the marketing notes and inside i was so so wishing that i had studied. it's like a recurrence of A levels. you just wish you had studied more. it's not all that difficult so why cant you do it? a simple reason - i was lazy.

the worse thing is, it seems like i've been treated so well suddenly i feel like it's God's/Heaven's (whatever's up there) way of compensation to me for my bad results. i cringe at that thought. It's like, andy lo gave me a tube of sweet, eric gave me yan yan and pocky today, my younger brother was helping me take out the fish bones before he gives it to me to eat, and after that he gave me this Tronky chocolate thing. I don't want compensation! People don't need to be so nice to me! just fair enough so that at least i get fair enough results. i dont want to fail and have to repeat my module next year. NO ONE fails the first semester.

end of the day, i feel FUCKING SCREWED UP.
and yes, like my og mate put on his nickname, STRESS is an UNDERSTATEMENT at this point of time.

HAPPY - LEONA LEWIS

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

LOVE LOVE LOVE LEONA LEWIS' "HAPPY" NOW X)

went for my brother's friend's (the bride) wedding today. was damn tired when i woke up because once again i slept at 6am. i'm like nocturnal now btw. i sleep at 6-8am and wake up at 6pm if i've no school the next day.

bo bian, i just can't get to do work in the day, only at night. X)

ah btw the news is,
when i reached the place for the wedding ceremony, i realised it was Ang Aik Siang's church. o.o

haha so i msged him and met him after the wedding ceremony was over. lol he looks more or less the same, just probably skinnier and with short hair.

anyway, the good thing is, i looked good. :D
or at least i thought so lah.

and oh ya, another thing is, the bride is like 24? the groom is 35. WOAH. hahahaha

btw, for ppl who actually visit this place, im attached. ;)

oh ya, exams are coming soon! like this thurs! >.<>

sweet dreams

It's my oldest brother's 25th birthday today. hmm as usual, wasn't able to do much. bought him an ice-cream cake from 7 eleven last night though. kk it's damn cheapskate cuz it only cost 5.50 and by the time i got home, he's about to sleep so he just took one spoonful of it. i ate the rest =x faaaaat. >.<

went to work yesterday. my colleagues were asking me "why did you decide to come today? exams over already?" wahahaha but in fact exams are coming soon. hee but the thing is even if i stayed at home, judging from the past few weeks, i would only be on my laptop or sleep the day away. might as well earn a few bucks right? X) plus i haven't seen them in ages, missed them CAN.

but yeah, i guess cuz i haven't been working for 2 months, i lost touch on how to promote. wahaha went there to be a "hua ping" for a day =x oh oh the exciting part the commotion at night. i had to go talk to the manager! lol not my fault can. it's just that the guy from the other brand made a mountain out of a mole hill. but he's kinda psychotic, heard from my boss he's actually on medication. felt damn guilty after i heard about that because his whole face and eyes turned red initially! like what the hell?! but k lah, cuz the manager was kind of on my side so it was just like a joke to us. us as in me and the people in my brand. :D

oh yeah, from thursday night to friday, i did not sleep a wink! eh heh was quite proud of myself cuz that was the first time in my life that i didn't sleep for at least 24 hours straight. but i regretted it on friday because i kept dozing off when there's school and project work till 8pm. was damn cranky and had a headache for the day.


just need a reason to stay away from you, and yep, i found it today.

O M G.

i'm so not studying. =/

exams are coming!

wah lao. really not used to blogging anymore. i guess i still need some time to adapt. wahaha

anyway how's everyone? i've really got nothing interesting to post aye. i suppose everyone knows im in muay thai. oh yea talk about muay thai, basically trainings are on thursdays and i'll feel like shit on fridays. yep, muscle aches x.x

oh yea i realize i like to take bikes. the first time taking it was definitely scary. you'd feel damn exposed. like what the hell, you reach out your hand and you can practically touch another car. plus, the first time i took a bike was my brother's bike. damn scary cuz he anyhow ride.

however, second time onwards not so scary. second time the first 5 minutes i still felt very exposed but after im past that 5 minutes, i don't feel it anymore. then went onto expressway from tampines to clementi. one word, shiok.

cuz the road is damn straight so you just keep moving. at first you'd feel like you have to stay close to the biker because you'd be afraid you'd fly backwards. but after awhile, it's alright lah. even if the biker is speeding you won't fall. to a certain extent can safely say you just need to put a hand on the shoulder also can. conclusion: you know the tv scenes where the pillon hugs the biker like the pillon is very scared like that right? ACT NIA LA. it's really nothing lah. if you do hug the person it's most likely just because you wanna hug the person.

oh ya why i talk about riding bikes. cuz yesterday after muay thai i took a ride on my friend's scooter. really feel nothing even if my friend was speeding. just feel cold lo. so remember to wear a jacket if you're riding at night. in the day, it's rather warm actually. under the sun and there's more vehicles on the road so there's a lot of warm polluted air around. :(

so anyone with a bike volunteer to give me a ride? HEE got bike tell me k. i want long bang. :D