Just had my marketing exam today. seriously, FML.

the paper is 50 marks, i left 10 marks blank. well, i did scribble something but it's so irrelevant it's as good as blank. i didn't even want to ask the others to check about the answers. whatever they were discussing after exam was like alien to me. it probaby hadn't sunk in that i'm screwed but now it has. even for questions i was rather confident of, it turns out i mixed up "personal" from "psychological", which my explanation wasn't sufficient at all anyway. so it's another 5 marks gone. 20 marks belonged to MCQ, and from past experience, you can only get about half as much correct even if you felt that you should have gotten like what, 18?? such a goner.

i went to bed last night at 5am, couldn't sleep till 6am. wtf. seriously, wtf. wasted my lack of sleep. came home and KO-ed straight till just and had my dinner. was putting aside all the marketing notes and inside i was so so wishing that i had studied. it's like a recurrence of A levels. you just wish you had studied more. it's not all that difficult so why cant you do it? a simple reason - i was lazy.

the worse thing is, it seems like i've been treated so well suddenly i feel like it's God's/Heaven's (whatever's up there) way of compensation to me for my bad results. i cringe at that thought. It's like, andy lo gave me a tube of sweet, eric gave me yan yan and pocky today, my younger brother was helping me take out the fish bones before he gives it to me to eat, and after that he gave me this Tronky chocolate thing. I don't want compensation! People don't need to be so nice to me! just fair enough so that at least i get fair enough results. i dont want to fail and have to repeat my module next year. NO ONE fails the first semester.

end of the day, i feel FUCKING SCREWED UP.
and yes, like my og mate put on his nickname, STRESS is an UNDERSTATEMENT at this point of time.