oh dear, haven't been updating.

results of sem 1 wasn't that bad. i mean, i didn't pass with the highest scores but i didn't pass with the lowest as well. afterall, i'm just really glad i managed to make it. the attitude i had in sem 1 was too complacent, i guess i'm still not geared for studying yet, the idea that there's a need to study just have not sunk in yet. but i'm sure while waiting for sem 1 results, the fear really struck me. hopefully i'll be much much more hardworking. wheeee. X)

went clubbing for the second time in my life on the 23rd of Dec. i think it's fun, i want to go again. this time, without my boyfriend =x

what what. they say it's more fun without your boyfriend what. =x

christmas was nice. think he's really nice to me. (:

oh ya, i spent new year eve, new year, day after new year, in fact the whole week after new year at home. cuz i'm SICK. still am. rawr. regret eating the twister fries just now, think i just totally lost my voice. RAWR. x.x

hee, had OG outing today. ice skating was damn fun, though it was just me and andy. but i think it's fun la. maybe cuz i learnt it fast despite this being my first time. wahaha. it's like, i started off slow like a few in the ice rink. after awhile, i was skating already and they're still at the same pace as they were before! wahaha alright, don't be mean, after all i have roller blading background. but c'mon la i'm quite sure they do as well. either way it boosted my ego cuz i can say "they're noob!" lol k lah childish but hey, it's fun :D

school's starting soon. wonder how my life would be like. oh ya, gonna join salsa this coming semester as well. should be interesting. hee. but one thing is, i'm super broke. not sure if it's the right thing to pursue this now. but then again, if i don't join now, i probably would just miss the opportunity to join this cca! cuz after all, sem 3 onwards, we're having part time lessons! meaning we'll be working! definitely no time to join ccas anymore! rawr.

so i seriously wonder how my life would be like. studying, revising, salsa, working part time pillow for i'll probably not get allowance anymore. BUSY. rawr.

oh ya, why won't i be getting allowance anymore? cuz my dad just quit his job again. i don't know how the hell is he gonna support the family, 3 kids in uni, and 1 in poly next year. don't talk about allowance la, he doesn't even have enough to pay for our school fees. this time, i'll need to fork out another 1k for my sem fees? lol not sure if i should be putting this on the blog. anyway it's late and yay, i finally updated my blog.

currently i have NO VOICE. that twister fries really twisted my throat. RAWR. don't call me k. no voice means no voice. you'll probably just hear whispers and coughing sounds if you call me. wahaha. RAWR.

exams are over!

feeling very afraid about the results though.

but still, now's the time to work, eat, sleep, and drama! :D

kit kat ice cream - so irresistably sinful! X)

Just had my marketing exam today. seriously, FML.

the paper is 50 marks, i left 10 marks blank. well, i did scribble something but it's so irrelevant it's as good as blank. i didn't even want to ask the others to check about the answers. whatever they were discussing after exam was like alien to me. it probaby hadn't sunk in that i'm screwed but now it has. even for questions i was rather confident of, it turns out i mixed up "personal" from "psychological", which my explanation wasn't sufficient at all anyway. so it's another 5 marks gone. 20 marks belonged to MCQ, and from past experience, you can only get about half as much correct even if you felt that you should have gotten like what, 18?? such a goner.

i went to bed last night at 5am, couldn't sleep till 6am. wtf. seriously, wtf. wasted my lack of sleep. came home and KO-ed straight till just and had my dinner. was putting aside all the marketing notes and inside i was so so wishing that i had studied. it's like a recurrence of A levels. you just wish you had studied more. it's not all that difficult so why cant you do it? a simple reason - i was lazy.

the worse thing is, it seems like i've been treated so well suddenly i feel like it's God's/Heaven's (whatever's up there) way of compensation to me for my bad results. i cringe at that thought. It's like, andy lo gave me a tube of sweet, eric gave me yan yan and pocky today, my younger brother was helping me take out the fish bones before he gives it to me to eat, and after that he gave me this Tronky chocolate thing. I don't want compensation! People don't need to be so nice to me! just fair enough so that at least i get fair enough results. i dont want to fail and have to repeat my module next year. NO ONE fails the first semester.

end of the day, i feel FUCKING SCREWED UP.
and yes, like my og mate put on his nickname, STRESS is an UNDERSTATEMENT at this point of time.

HAPPY - LEONA LEWIS

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

LOVE LOVE LOVE LEONA LEWIS' "HAPPY" NOW X)

went for my brother's friend's (the bride) wedding today. was damn tired when i woke up because once again i slept at 6am. i'm like nocturnal now btw. i sleep at 6-8am and wake up at 6pm if i've no school the next day.

bo bian, i just can't get to do work in the day, only at night. X)

ah btw the news is,
when i reached the place for the wedding ceremony, i realised it was Ang Aik Siang's church. o.o

haha so i msged him and met him after the wedding ceremony was over. lol he looks more or less the same, just probably skinnier and with short hair.

anyway, the good thing is, i looked good. :D
or at least i thought so lah.

and oh ya, another thing is, the bride is like 24? the groom is 35. WOAH. hahahaha

btw, for ppl who actually visit this place, im attached. ;)

oh ya, exams are coming soon! like this thurs! >.<>